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In Memoriam – Meghan Cross

admin — Sun, 18 Mar 2012 05:57:47 +0000

Meghan – I miss you, more than I can (even) say. I wonder what you are like in heaven. You must be much like you were on earth – beautiful. That is all I can say. I wonder when I will see you again. You must be watching over me – even right now. I wish I could remember your face. I wish we got to spend more time than those precious two hours. I don’t know of any way to connect with you but to write to you, as if you were to read this. How many more times will I try to remember your face until I see it again, with full clarity? I don’t know how to pass the time, Meghan. Every minute seems to drag by, as if it was an hour. That is always how it is when you are waiting for something. Especially waiting for something you desperately want. Just to remember your name and that I knew you and that you knew me, brings me joy. It must be all worth it, as James C. Herper said. You bore your own cross, Meghan. You did. God knows you did. Will I have to? I hope not. I wish I took your hand that night. How I wish. I would give anything to make it so. But that is something that I cannot change. Maybe something even God cannot change, if such a thing is possible. I wonder how you went, into that gentle good night. Maybe you remembered me. Maybe when it is my time to go. I will think of you. As you always were, and as you will always be. Your last moment will never be forgotten, it will live on in eternity. And how I wish to live with you in eternity – one day, Meghan. My beautiful Meghan Cross.

From Meadowview Psychiatric Hospital
595 County Avenue, Secaucus, NJ 07094

Posted on my behalf by my brother. If anyone wants to, write me a postcard or a letter. Please do so.

Daniel Veytsel

Life is Beautiful

admin — Tue, 17 Jan 2012 21:10:25 +0000

The Truman Show

admin — Sun, 01 Jan 2012 01:09:08 +0000

We’ll live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the Glory of Love
We did it all for love

Billy Joel – The River Of Dreams

admin — Sat, 31 Dec 2011 21:14:47 +0000

The All-American Rejects – Move Along

admin — Sat, 31 Dec 2011 00:25:23 +0000

Dedicated to those fighting for us all. Maintain hope.
Maintain the frequency. God is with us all.

Lets do something else

admin — Tue, 20 Dec 2011 21:30:20 +0000

“Lets do something else” she said (to me). I sit on the batroom counter -and cry. I ran through the waves with her - at night. We sit together on the lifeguard tower. I see my wall, and tears stream down my face,

as I remmebr (and miss) her. She hops over the fence – like a little boy, with the ease of a little boy hopping over the fence. She touches my face with her nose. We sail away on alittle ship, just me and her, in the middle of the summer ocean, heading for our own little oasis/haven. She touches my neck as she puts/rubs on aloe vera juice/gel. I’m lying on the cot, and she puts a mouse, on my blanket. I fall to my knees and tears stream down my face, as I pray for her.. I’m hanging on to the windowsill, and she pulls me up, saves me and makes love to me. Saves me.”Good morning” she says. The blood runs down my knuckles, can she hear me?!

I miss you

admin — Tue, 20 Dec 2011 21:28:07 +0000

I miss you.
I cry for you.
I’d die for you.
Do you remember me?
Like I remember you.

Do you wish for love to blossom anew?
I stand and wait,
For you to come back,
For love to come back.

I believe in you.
Do you believe in me?

I can see

admin — Tue, 20 Dec 2011 21:20:32 +0000

I will never make love to you,
I will never see skies so blue.
I will never see the despair in your eyes,
And I never heard your cries.

I can see. I can see her. I can see Doria taking her final step.

Peace18 up

admin — Thu, 08 Dec 2011 16:00:38 +0000

Peace18.com is back up

daniel@peace18.com

Jodie Foster

admin — Wed, 07 Dec 2011 16:45:31 +0000